blimey i havent posted since February! well, im back, if only temporarily, to say hi just to say, atm, i haate being here. bev (parent) is making me feel like a deep recessed pit of dark and dismal carnage and the only thing keeping my head above the grimy sticky messy and foul smelling hovel that i am forced to live in is phil. he is the most amazing and wonderful person in the whole world and i love him more than existence. trying to put how i feel about him in words is like trying to teach a tiger to talk. he knows (almost) how i feel and i guess thats all that matters.
im now obsessed with many many books and on my christmas list, after discount, there is about £250 worth of books im very sad and have taken to reading to waste the 5 days of the week in which i am philless for he has done very well at a level and gone to uni. so for mon-fri each week i am attempting to be as busy as possible whilst trying to banish any time to think, or i get terribly depressed and have to collect all his possessions (that i have) and hug them for a long time.
so off the subject of phil, which is making me miss him more, life is rather dull, mondays i work and spend a few hours with eniap stretching and watching silly tv which is good fun ^^ tuesdays i do 1.5 hours trampolining, 1 hours conditioning and 2 hours gymnastics. wednesdays i tutor and babysit, thursdays i wallow in self pity unless i happily come across something better and fridays i do an hour of tramp and eagerly await the face that makes me happy. so thats me!
now i will do this atrocious quiz because i like to!
Girly
[x] I love at least one shade of pink.
[x] I don't like being messy.
[yup] My belongings are organized.
[ ] I don't like rock music.
[they get in the way, i only wear my 1 and two year anni gift and the necklaces he bought me] I like wearing accessories all the time.
[x] Bright colors amaze me.
[ ] I hate black.
[ ] I go to the salon once a week.
[ ] I comb my hair almost all the time.
[for practicality and to talk to phil] I bring my phone with me everywhere.
60%


Boyish
[ ] I wear baggy pants.
[phils fault] I play video games
[ ] I listen to boy bands.
[warmth] I like wearing jackets with hoods.
[ ] I'm too lazy to do chores.
[ ] I don't like shopping.
[more like fucking skydiving, which reminds me i must put up my pics ] I like to go bungee jumping.
[ ] I like being sweaty.
[ ] I barely wear perfume.
30%

Nerdy
[its handy!] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket.
[ ] I enjoy studying.
[i will be soon ] I wear glasses.
[well almost]Im a straight-A student.
[ ] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[ ] I like my shirt tucked in
[at the moment]My favorite subject is science
[like i said..] I enjoy reading books.
[ ] My assignments are always passed on time
[unless its the internet] I correct people with their grammar.
60% great...

Emo
[ ] I love the color black.
[ ] I always sit at the corner.
[ ] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.
[x] I like listening to rock music.
[i'll deal] I have a lot of problems in my life.
[ ] I'm not much of a loud person.
[ ] I don't talk much.
[um, four.] I don't have that many friends.
[ ] I barely have fun.
[x] I barely go out with my folks or friends.
40%

Childish
[i truly hope you are joking] I am open to my parents.
[phil's ^^] I sleep with a stuff toy.
[fuck yes] I watch cartoons.
[ ] I don't like watching horror movies.
[ ] I sleep with a night light.
[death.....] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.
[ ] I'm scared of roller coasters.
[ ] I like being with my family relatives.
[and read ] I take bubble baths.
[what the hell do you think im doing right now!] I've ran around the house in my underwear.
40%

Popular
[ ] A lot of people adore me.
[ ] I hangout with the coolest crew at school!
[ ] My parents are loaded.
[ ] I get everything I want.
[ ] I don't wear the same outfit twice.
[ ] I always have the latest gadgets.
[ ] I'm updated to the latest gossips.
[ ] I don't like people blocking my way.
[ ] I have a lot of friends.
[ ] A lot of people look to me
0% hmm, didnt do too well here!

i seem to be a nerdy girly..... hmm not sure!

xx